I am not good at roleplaying.
I mean that I don’t play a character here, I am just being myself and when dealing with a specific situation I react the same way I would in RL.
With its exotic locations and its endless possibilities, I consider SL different and surrealistic enough of an universe for me to feel the need to roleplay a fictional character.
Of course, when actually “playing” a bdsm scene with someone, I will adopt the needed attitude like I do in RL but I am not a Domme 24 hours a day and I certainly don’t log in expecting to be whipping asses on a strict regular basis.
I know that some people come online to play and play again, considering SL as a big bondage video game and very often neglecting the other aspects of this virtual world. Socializing, exploring or simply chatting with friends are not included in their list of activities. I bear no grudge against these people and won’t dare to judge them.
I just see things a different way.
When chatting with someone I never know if this person is emotionally really reacting or just faking according to the character she chose to play and, most often than not, I have been surprised or puzzled by answers I received to some of my naïve questions. I don’t mix RL and SL, that’s not the point here but I can’t help believing what people tell me and react accordingly only to discover that they were just giving flesh to their character.
I guess I just have to get used to it.
That’s the reason why you won’t see me often in “official” rp sims like Deadend where everybody is supposed to actively and constantly be someone else. I am impressed by the fact that players go as far as having an entire forum devoted to the adventures their characters live where they share the last episodes of this dramatic serial.
I sincerely would love to join the fun but being a poor actress myself, I guess I merely would spoil the game. Besides I am far from being talented enough to compose these long and sophisticated sentences describing what my character is supposed to do as going only by dialogs doesn’t seem to be considered enough of a thrill.
“And Sarah puts her pen back on the desk and after reading this entry a last time, decides to post it, hoping deep in her heart that she won’t hurt anyone’s feelings”
